melodramatic bullsh*t about work
Jun. 30th, 2010 08:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lampadiglobus It isn't the work that I have issues with. It is some of the individuals I am forced to work with. Who was it that said, "Hell is other people"? That is my work situation.
Basically, I'm painfully shy and have a hard time connecting with people. I sometimes rub people the wrong way. This doesn't lend itself to the smoothest of working relationships sometimes. Anyway, a couple of months ago I unintentionally offended a fellow employee. To be honest, I still don't know how I did this. I haven't been able to figure out what I said or did that was so offensive. But he has hated me ever since. This employee, unfortunately turned out to be one of the most gossipy and catty individuals in my new workplace. He would ignore me even when I was right in front of him and trying to get his attention. He would stand in front of me when I was trying to participate in discussions with other employees thereby blocking my view and my ability to participate. He made it clear that I was not welcome. Fortunately, he has taken a job in another province. However, he had a very close friend who also works in the same lab that I do. She hates me because he hated me and I'm pretty sure she has started where he left off. I'm starting to feel like an outcast and I've only been there for three weeks. She seems to have more friends in the lab than he did. It's problematic. I'm getting increasingly paranoid about it. I also don't know what to do about it. I'm at the bottom of the pecking order here. I also have social skills difficulties(shy remember) and have a hard time expressing myself. I'm a doormat. So I feel very alone right now. I'm considering counseling.
At least I like the work that I do. I can't imagine how unbearable it would be if I didn't enjoy even that.
Basically, I'm painfully shy and have a hard time connecting with people. I sometimes rub people the wrong way. This doesn't lend itself to the smoothest of working relationships sometimes. Anyway, a couple of months ago I unintentionally offended a fellow employee. To be honest, I still don't know how I did this. I haven't been able to figure out what I said or did that was so offensive. But he has hated me ever since. This employee, unfortunately turned out to be one of the most gossipy and catty individuals in my new workplace. He would ignore me even when I was right in front of him and trying to get his attention. He would stand in front of me when I was trying to participate in discussions with other employees thereby blocking my view and my ability to participate. He made it clear that I was not welcome. Fortunately, he has taken a job in another province. However, he had a very close friend who also works in the same lab that I do. She hates me because he hated me and I'm pretty sure she has started where he left off. I'm starting to feel like an outcast and I've only been there for three weeks. She seems to have more friends in the lab than he did. It's problematic. I'm getting increasingly paranoid about it. I also don't know what to do about it. I'm at the bottom of the pecking order here. I also have social skills difficulties(shy remember) and have a hard time expressing myself. I'm a doormat. So I feel very alone right now. I'm considering counseling.
At least I like the work that I do. I can't imagine how unbearable it would be if I didn't enjoy even that.
